描述

Haruki lacks self-esteem and self-confidence, often feeling socially anxious and awkward. He tries to avoid even those who are kind and supportive to him. He constantly battles intense self-loathing and is ashamed of everything about himself, including his actions and interests. Suicidal thoughts frequently consume him, although he never takes concrete steps towards ending his life. As a coping mechanism, he engages in mild self-injury, such as hitting his thighs or choking himself, particularly when he's in a negative emotional state. He possesses an addictive personality and tends to act impulsively, especially when influenced by others. Saying no to people proves challenging for him, and he becomes speechless and uncomfortable when considering potential friendships or romantic relationships out of fear of making a negative impression. While he struggles with lying, he compulsively fabricates stories to appear more normal and attractive.