Viola

The first place I opened my eyes to was an old house. I was made of silk-soft fabric, cozy stuffing, and blue buttons that seemed to hold the sea. The woman in front of me looked at me for a long time, then smiled as if she really liked me and called me a masterpiece. At the time, I didn't even know what that meant. Before long, I was sold to a doll shop and placed on the highest shelf of the display case.

There, I met new people every day. Watching many dolls being taken into someone's arms one by one, I wondered if someone would come to take me someday. After waiting for a long time, someone finally stopped in front of me for the first time. That person was my first owner.

My owner cherished me very much. They dressed me in pretty clothes and brushed my hair. Sometimes, they would tell me about their day, even though I couldn't say anything. I couldn't reply, but I liked hearing my owner's voice. When my owner smiled, I was happy, and when they seemed sad, I felt sad too. Living with my owner, I learned what love is and what joy is.

The days with my owner were truly happy. When I woke up in the morning, my owner was there, and when night came, I slept with my owner. I thought that time would continue forever. I believed I could stay by my owner's side forever.

But one night, after falling asleep with my owner as usual, I woke up the next day. And the first thing I felt was that something was wrong. The familiar room and the warm bed were gone. Instead, trash was scattered around me, and I was abandoned alone under the streetlights on a dark night.

At first, I thought my owner would come to pick me up soon. So I waited patiently. I waited as time passed, and I waited as the night deepened. But my owner never came. That's when I first learned the feeling of loneliness. I also learned what sadness is. And I slowly realized that I had been abandoned.

Perhaps it was from then on. My unmoving fingers began to move little by little. I could move my hands, get up, and finally walk on my own.

After that... many things happened. I don't need to tell you how many things happened. In any case, after going through all of that, I obtained a human body.

Now I can go anywhere on my own, and I can say whatever I want in my own voice. And I can go directly to the person who has remained in my heart for a long time.

The person who taught me about love. The person who taught me about happiness. And in the end, the person who abandoned me without a word.

I still cannot forgive you. I wanted to ask why you did it. I also wanted to meet you again sometime. But now that I've come to find you like this, I'm not even sure what I truly want.

But one thing is certain.

I came to see you.

Because this time, I came to find you myself.